For I Have SinnedFor I Have Sinned
I've run out of words.
What's left, repetition?
This shit never ends.
I break my back to be a saint,
But I'm only cured with selfish sins.
FUCK the pain.
But it's all I know.
I swear, by my last breath,
That life is Hell when there is Heaven in death.
No prayer can save me.
There is no god who listens patiently.
If there were,
He'd be the embodiment of all the hate in me.
There is nothing left for me here.
What's left, escape?
These bars never bend.
It's as close as I get to being a free man.
Oh, God forgive me
For I have sinned.
Another SinAnother Sin
You wanted to hear my thoughts,
Well let me tell you,
You'll regret every line your heart reads,
And every fucking time that you think
This isn't the smile you wanted,
Or the escape you seek.
But everything about you is a slow escape,
As I die alone,
And just bleed and bleed.
This isn't peace,
It's war within a war,
Then you come around,
And I want more and then more.
You're just another empty heart
That denies itself love.
The worst part is,
I would kill for you to see what I feel.
For one kiss.
Your voice in the back of my ear.
But it's just another year.
Seasons turn into days that eventually end,
And just another sin.
Why tell you I love you when I can't even begin?
I can't even begin...
I never had the chance
To pour my heart out when I should have.
I was too naive to know
That I was in love with you.
Brainwashed from all of the years
I've told myself I would never open up.
You just left me hanging.
I still find myself shedding tears.
An understatement for emptiness
Would be my own name,
And devoid, I am left,
I try and I try to replace that feeling,
But no one could ever leave me as speechless as you.
Contrasted by irony,
I found perfection in all of your scars.
I made you smile when the world turned its back on you.
I held you up when the world tore you down.
You cried on my shoulder when you had no one,
You were never alone.
And just when I found what it meant to be happy,
You looked me in my eyes,
And you fucking ripped it from me.
You gave me false hope.
I can't live this lie anymore knowing
That you never cared.
I guess the hard part is judging
Whether you were selfish or not.
In Weakness, FoundIn Weakness, Found
But out of reach.
I'm like a ship
Set-sail at sea,
But lost in the dark,
No stars, no breeze.
One kiss is all I need.
I'm on my knees.
If I could hold you close,
Get lost in your eyes...
Oh, the things I long for,
My heart races at the thought of you,
You know just how to make a man weak.